Wednesday October 4, 2017, I was sitting in my bedroom pouring my soul into my journal, ranting about how humanity has left me feeling abandon, unloved and an outcast, in a society where people prefer to engage in a relationship with their technical devices, instead of connecting with people. At 11:35pm, my mobile phone rings, I saw my youngest sisters’ name on the screen, I said “shit” took a deep breath and answered.
“sis, what’s wrong?”
“Donavan committed suicide.”
Silence. Time Stopped.
My handsome 22-year-old nephew, a recent college graduate, received a new car from his proud father, and on his way to a career in law enforcement. A young man with a spotless record, choir member and church usher; felt that he no longer wanted to live. Days after this tragic event people are asking why? If I had the answer would that knowledge bring him back?
We live in a society where there is an increasing number of teens and young adults committing suicide, and the only question people are asking is why? My family has been devastated by such a sudden and violent death. When the family gathers we don’t talk much, we stare into space and go through the motions of planning his final service.
His mother, my sister asked me to write something nice for his obituary. After many tears soaked pages, I finally wrote these words.
Yesterday, the sky was a blazed with stars so bright they lead me home.
Yesterday, I saw your smiling face, happy with hope, faith, and peace.
Today, the Sun shined radiantly I saw your smile in the warmth of the rays.
Tonight, no stars, and the smiling, peaceful, hopeful, faithful face is no more.
The Sun has gone down. In his rest my beloved nephew struggles no more against the trails of life, loveless days, and the pain that he was unable to express. Yesterday, silence. Today there is Peace.